Silence is closed.
A notificiation from Rahenna has shown me that my idea was more serious than I was paying attention to, and I want to make a public apology.
Basically, I wasn't paying enough attention to notice that my ideas for the second round of Athenian went too far. I saw Rahenna's gallery, and when I wasn't sure what to use for decks, I looked on there and picked things that seemed interesting, and by not thinking about it first, I picked things that were too personal and mentally justified that it was made local on the gallery. I really wanted to show appreciation on the idea and really liked my idea to make a round on Silence, and I really wanted to do it, so my thoughts on the need for deck ideas blinded me from taking a step back and thinking "This is getting a bit too personal."
After she sent me an email on it, I finally took a step back and knew I had been a complete idiot for going this far and not realizing how odd it was. I don't want anyone, especially her, to misunderstand my intentions and think I'm creepy and stalkerish, because I'm normally not. I just try to make sure that I showed true appreciation because even though I had linked (I only recently realized that at one point I had accidentally taken it off, and I keep forgetting to put it back on), it was her idea. I couldn't bring myself to close it, which was weak of me, so I decided to do something big to thank her for that, to apologize for my mess-up with Moonlight Legend, and thank her for anything else, because she HAS done a lot to help me.
And, because I went too far, all it did was creep her out, offended her, and angered her because of the very things she did for me.
I am truly embarrassed by this, but I know it does not compare to Rahenna's potential embarrassement and feelings upon viewing this site.
I do not know who all has been involved and who had these thoughts on me, but I hope that if nothing else you all forgive me for my time of stupidity and lack of thought. There is no one to blame but myself, and I know that if you do people wrong, you are supposed to make up for it, and I wish to do so, and anyone who has been hurt by this, Rahenna and potentially anyone else, I will try to make it up, and hopefully be forgiven over time.
~ Dite
Next-Day Addition
I thought about it more today. I realized that I'm the type that likes to do big things to show appreciation to the people that help me most. In my overall real life, it's my parents. In school specifically, it's my favorite teachers. At one point, I bought my mom a Mother & Daughter pin/pendant, and I ended up getting some students to come together with me and buy my french teacher a "Francais" school spirit tag. I don't think about them all day, or feel stalker-ish toward them, but at times, I like to show appreciation.
I would look at my credits or the things I use most within my TCGs and realized that a lot of the stuff, even though most of it was for anyone, came from Rahenna. So, I decided to do something TCG-related and make a round of Silence to her. But, as already said, when I ran out of deck ideas, I saw her gallery and decided to use some things from there. I now think that at that point my devotion to the idea of the round blinded me, and I stopped thinking about her as a person, and more as a subject like the Yuna one or any other TCG subject. I didn't notice it, and didn't even stop to consider the boundaries of a real person. That is one of the biggest things I want to apologize for.